Valediction ...

This is Goodbye. Anecdotes of my being I have been compiling, formulating to you to interpret. I put your intellect to simplicity, as I discontinue carving my existence of gibberish here. Be delighted, as on behalf of some indefinite raison d'être (reasoning), I have grounds to deem that my living judgments have upset several beings as well as myself. Beyond the present day, I will subsist, in custody of my judgment, my adorations, my abhorrence and yet, my entire way of life, to no more than myself.

This is my last post as a blog playwright.

This is the ending conclusion. Farewell.

I express gratitude for each and every one who has accompanied me thus far.

Your Lone but Forever Friend,

Dhanish Athif Rasheed

Life's Twists and Turns

Countless things’ has happened to me this past week. Yeah, too many things it’s hard to keep count of ‘em all. First of all, in the midst of creating an oh-so-tiring magazine, from all the things that may’ve happened to me. I fell in love. That’s right, out of all things possible, I fell in love. What were the chances of that?

Not that far, actually. To start with, some guy added me one day, first thing he did, he started accusing me of having a gf. I was like, WTF. I don’t got a gf. I barely know the girl. There you go telling me we love each other. F*ck. I was really pissed at the guy. Wanting to find out why, I asked around and finally got her e-mail address. At first she had the same reaction as I did. Well, after all that was said and done, we started with ‘random conversation.’ Dude, it was so great talking to her. We had so much in common. We had so much we could share. I never felt this haven with anyone else before. I really liked her, then and there. Then I realized, this ‘guy’ coming with the accusation, was one of the best things that ever happened to me.

One night, for some reason, I introduced her to Dhim. My little sister. Fortunately, she and Dhim liked each other a lot. This ‘introduction’ is what really started my liking towards her. Before then, it had never occurred to me, did I like her? Well, Dhim actually thought of the idea. She ‘wanted’ us to get-together. She started off with telling everyone in my family about her. Damn that. I was so very embarrassed :/. But that got me thinking, do I love her? Could she be …? OMG Really…? That’s basically what happened.

Another night, I was waiting patiently, for ‘her’ to get online. To which, I dosed off for some reason. And out of nowhere. While I was all cuddled up in my bed, Dhim came, saw ‘her’ online and took the luxury of chatting with her. Yeah yeah, I forgot to get offline before napping :/. During this time, she told her that I was in LURVE with her. I never wanted her to know, I was waiting for the right time. I knew it would’ve been a no, if I asked when I did. Also, it seems that she told another friend of mine. Who she was and all that, which really pissed me off.

Thank god, my friend was kind enough to tell me what had happened. Thanks to her, the damage was clear to me. Just after the hours of explanation, ‘she’ got online. I apologized to her as much as I could. As it was myself who fell in love in the first place. Yeah, it was a no. But, Who cares? F*ck it? Fortunately she was great enough to still consider me as one of her close friend. You Rock girl. Thanks girl. Thanks so much

Now, thanks to all my friends, I now have one of the greatest friends anyone could ever wish for. All my friends, even Dhim in her own special/annoying way, also that ‘some guy’ who made me search for her. I had never found such a luxurious haven before. I want to spend the rest of my days by her friendship. Thanks so much girl. Love you :D (as a friend :P )

My search for answers became my love. My love became my close friend.

Thank you.

I Love You - Bleach Movie Song

I was just watching some Bleach Movie. And it's Ending Theme Song was so nice, I just HAD to post it here. I know it's Japanese but hell with it. Please ignore the typing mistakes in the lyrics as I wrote it myself. It is only natural that there is background noise, 'cux I took it from the movie. I have posted a download link to the song and you can also listen to it on the MP3 Player. Enjoy!

aisaretai demo aisou shinai

I want you to love me, I don’t think you will.

sono kurikaeshi no naka wo smaayotte

I wander around as I repeat this to myself

boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte kizu tsuitatte

It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.

suki na hito ni wa sukitte tsutaerun da

I'll say "I love you" to the one I love.

anata ga boku wo aishiteru ka aishitenai ka

Do you love me or not?

nante koto wa mou docchi demo iin da

I don't care what the answer is, I just need to know!

donna ni negai nozomou ga

No matter how bad I desire to be with you.

kono sakai ni wa kaerarenu mono ga takusan aru darou

There are many changeable things in this world,

sou so shite boku ga anata o aishiteru to ju jijitsu dake wa

And my love for you

dare ni mo kaerarenu shinjitsu dakara

can't be stopped by anyone

sen no yoru wo koete anata ni tsutaetai

As 1000 nights pass, I long to tell you...

tsutaenakya naranai koto ga aru

I have to let you know

aisaretai demo aisou to shinai

"I want you to love me, but I don't think you will."

sono kurikaeshi no naka wo samayotte

I wander around as I repeat this to myself

boku na mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte kizu tsuitatte

It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt

suki na hito ni wa sukitte tsutaerun da

I'll say "I love you" to the one I love.

kimochi wo kobota ni suru no wa kowai yo demo

Putting these feelings into words is so scary, but

suki na hito ni wa sukitte tsutaerun da

I'll say "I love you" to the one I love.

kono hiroi sekai de - meguriau yorokobi wo kotoba ja iiarawasenai ne

The happiness we chance upon in our lives can't be expressed in words

daraka bokutachi wa hohoemi

That's why we can only smile.

iro azayaka ni sugiru aki "do re mi" de utatte

Why we sing "Do Re Mi" among the vivid autumn colors

fuyu o se ni haru no komorebi wo machi

With winter at our backs, and spring sunbeams peeking through the leaves

atarashiku umarekawaru dareka wo mamoreru you ni to

as to protect someone who's just been reborn

kita mischi to yukisaki furikaereba - itsudemo okubyou na me o shiteita boku

As I looked at the road I'd traveled and the path ahead, my eyes were filled with cowardice.

kukiaitai demo sunao ni narenai

I wanted to look into your eyes, but I was afraid I wouldn't be honest.

massugu ni aite wo aisenai hibi wo

I didn't want to know that you didn't want to love me

kurikaeshite wa hitori bocchi wo iyagatta

and live the rest of my days alone

ano hi no boku wa mukizu na mama de hito wo aisou to shiteita

That day, I kept on loving you without getting hurt.

sen no yoru wo koete ima anata ni ai ni ikou

As 1000 nights pass, I long to tell you...

tsutaenakya naranai koto ga aru

I have to let you know.

aisaretai demo aisou to shinai

"I want you to love me, but I don'tthink you will."

sono kurikaeshi no naka o samayotte

I wander around as I repeat this to myself

boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte kizu tsuitatte

It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.

suki na hito ni wa sukitte tsutaerun da

I'll say "I love you" to the one I love

sono omoi ga kanawanakutatte suki na hito ni sukitte tsutaeru

Even if my feelings aren't returned, I can say "I love you" to the one I love...

sore wa kono sekai de ichiban suteki na koto sa

And that's the most beautiful thing in the world.

[download this song]