My Way of Dwelling

When we first met I made you promise
you would never leave,
then I told you of the demons,
and how they made me bleed.

I made you promise crazy things,
but your words were not enough.
I couldn't believe you loved me
I thought to love me was too tough.

When I cry about my past
and say that I'm ashamed
I know I am the only one
who is to be blamed.
Then you crawl beside me
and say that it's ok-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.

When I can't sleep through the night,
when I toss and turn in bed,
you wrap your arms around me
and chase the demons from my head.
You say don't talk about the past
you tell me that it's gone,
you say since we're together now
it's time that I move on,
you say that I'm your angel
but if you only knew
the kind of thoughts I think
and what I used to do.
You tell me it doesn't matter
and that you love me anyway-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.

They said that's how they liked it
when I dragged my nails across their backs,
but now you try hold my hand in yours
and tell me to relax,
you say that this is love
and this is the better way-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.

I never felt a thing
before you touched my heart
and when you touched it,
I thought I'd fall apart.
When you try kiss my lips,
to feel me deep within your soul
trying to wrap your arms around me
and say you'll never let me go.

When I tremble at your tenderness
and try not to melt in your arms,
I know you really love me,
and you'll keep me safe from harm
you know I've never loved
or been loved in any kind of way-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.

And now, I give you away as well.

Oh my dear, I’m so sorry. But this is the way I tend to dwell.

Take Care Mysha

Saying Goodbye is the hardest thing I'll ever do

Which is why I'm beginning to wish I never said "Hi!" to you

It's hard to explain how two people can have so much in common and be so different at the same time

How in years we have surpassed a line some people straddle for decades

Its almost as if it was planned this way

That we were supposed to meet the very first day

Ever since that day, I've never looked back

I wonder sometimes why this girl means so much

But I realized it's more than that, you're a friend

Which is why I won't say goodbye

Because I don't truly believe this is the end

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Take Care,

Beloved Mysha

What I love about you

This weekend I met this really great girl … I have known her for as long as I remember but, we’re started “talking” only this weekend. Only now do I realize how cool she really is :D. Although we’re just friends, we’ve shared moments that are unforgettable. She’s a great friend. Better than any other girl has ever been to me. No. I won’t fall in love with her. Not just yet. I never want this feeling to leave my side. I never want her to leave my side. She’s constantly leaves me speechless. But yet, neither she nor I want anyone to know about our relationship. All I can say is, I really do like her. Your eyes

which first held me captivated
where I stood.

Your smile
to dazzle the sun
and warm every corner of my soul.

Your voice
like a sparkling mountain stream
which flows into my heart.

Your walk
and the way your gracefulness
takes my breath away.

Your hair
about which I dreamed
cascading into my face
as you leaned over me.

Your hands
whose caress I crave
to hold my face
in their tenderness.

Your arms
I long to have around my neck
as you pull me close
to your warmth.

Most of all
everything you are
changed the way I feel about my life.

I really do like you.