HEPHAESTUS

Valediction ...

2007-09-30T16:35:00.000+05:00

This is Goodbye. Anecdotes of my being I have been compiling, formulating to you to interpret. I put your intellect to simplicity, as I discontinue carving my existence of gibberish here. Be delighted, as on behalf of some indefinite raison d'être (reasoning), I have grounds to deem that my living judgments have upset several beings as well as myself. Beyond the present day, I will subsist, in custody of my judgment, my adorations, my abhorrence and yet, my entire way of life, to no more than myself.

This is my last post as a blog playwright.

This is the ending conclusion. Farewell.

I express gratitude for each and every one who has accompanied me thus far.

Your Lone but Forever Friend,

Dhanish Athif Rasheed

Life's Twists and Turns

2007-09-16T12:01:00.000+05:00

Countless things’ has happened to me this past week. Yeah, too many things it’s hard to keep count of ‘em all. First of all, in the midst of creating an oh-so-tiring magazine, from all the things that may’ve happened to me. I fell in love. That’s right, out of all things possible, I fell in love. What were the chances of that?

Not that far, actually. To start with, some guy added me one day, first thing he did, he started accusing me of having a gf. I was like, WTF. I don’t got a gf. I barely know the girl. There you go telling me we love each other. F*ck. I was really pissed at the guy. Wanting to find out why, I asked around and finally got her e-mail address. At first she had the same reaction as I did. Well, after all that was said and done, we started with ‘random conversation.’ Dude, it was so great talking to her. We had so much in common. We had so much we could share. I never felt this haven with anyone else before. I really liked her, then and there. Then I realized, this ‘guy’ coming with the accusation, was one of the best things that ever happened to me.

One night, for some reason, I introduced her to Dhim. My little sister. Fortunately, she and Dhim liked each other a lot. This ‘introduction’ is what really started my liking towards her. Before then, it had never occurred to me, did I like her? Well, Dhim actually thought of the idea. She ‘wanted’ us to get-together. She started off with telling everyone in my family about her. Damn that. I was so very embarrassed :/. But that got me thinking, do I love her? Could she be …? OMG Really…? That’s basically what happened.

Another night, I was waiting patiently, for ‘her’ to get online. To which, I dosed off for some reason. And out of nowhere. While I was all cuddled up in my bed, Dhim came, saw ‘her’ online and took the luxury of chatting with her. Yeah yeah, I forgot to get offline before napping :/. During this time, she told her that I was in LURVE with her. I never wanted her to know, I was waiting for the right time. I knew it would’ve been a no, if I asked when I did. Also, it seems that she told another friend of mine. Who she was and all that, which really pissed me off.

Thank god, my friend was kind enough to tell me what had happened. Thanks to her, the damage was clear to me. Just after the hours of explanation, ‘she’ got online. I apologized to her as much as I could. As it was myself who fell in love in the first place. Yeah, it was a no. But, Who cares? F*ck it? Fortunately she was great enough to still consider me as one of her close friend. You Rock girl. Thanks girl. Thanks so much

Now, thanks to all my friends, I now have one of the greatest friends anyone could ever wish for. All my friends, even Dhim in her own special/annoying way, also that ‘some guy’ who made me search for her. I had never found such a luxurious haven before. I want to spend the rest of my days by her friendship. Thanks so much girl. Love you :D (as a friend :P )

My search for answers became my love. My love became my close friend.

Thank you.

I Love You - Bleach Movie Song

2007-09-15T19:27:00.000+05:00

I was just watching some Bleach Movie. And it's Ending Theme Song was so nice, I just HAD to post it here. I know it's Japanese but hell with it. Please ignore the typing mistakes in the lyrics as I wrote it myself. It is only natural that there is background noise, 'cux I took it from the movie. I have posted a download link to the song and you can also listen to it on the MP3 Player. Enjoy!

aisaretai demo aisou shinai

I want you to love me, I don’t think you will.

sono kurikaeshi no naka wo smaayotte

I wander around as I repeat this to myself

boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte kizu tsuitatte

It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.

suki na hito ni wa sukitte tsutaerun da

I'll say "I love you" to the one I love.

anata ga boku wo aishiteru ka aishitenai ka

Do you love me or not?

nante koto wa mou docchi demo iin da

I don't care what the answer is, I just need to know!

donna ni negai nozomou ga

No matter how bad I desire to be with you.

kono sakai ni wa kaerarenu mono ga takusan aru darou

There are many changeable things in this world,

sou so shite boku ga anata o aishiteru to ju jijitsu dake wa

And my love for you

dare ni mo kaerarenu shinjitsu dakara

can't be stopped by anyone

sen no yoru wo koete anata ni tsutaetai

As 1000 nights pass, I long to tell you...

tsutaenakya naranai koto ga aru

I have to let you know

aisaretai demo aisou to shinai

"I want you to love me, but I don't think you will."

sono kurikaeshi no naka wo samayotte

I wander around as I repeat this to myself

boku na mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte kizu tsuitatte

It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt

suki na hito ni wa sukitte tsutaerun da

I'll say "I love you" to the one I love.

kimochi wo kobota ni suru no wa kowai yo demo

Putting these feelings into words is so scary, but

suki na hito ni wa sukitte tsutaerun da

I'll say "I love you" to the one I love.

kono hiroi sekai de - meguriau yorokobi wo kotoba ja iiarawasenai ne

The happiness we chance upon in our lives can't be expressed in words

daraka bokutachi wa hohoemi

That's why we can only smile.

iro azayaka ni sugiru aki "do re mi" de utatte

Why we sing "Do Re Mi" among the vivid autumn colors

fuyu o se ni haru no komorebi wo machi

With winter at our backs, and spring sunbeams peeking through the leaves

atarashiku umarekawaru dareka wo mamoreru you ni to

as to protect someone who's just been reborn

kita mischi to yukisaki furikaereba - itsudemo okubyou na me o shiteita boku

As I looked at the road I'd traveled and the path ahead, my eyes were filled with cowardice.

kukiaitai demo sunao ni narenai

I wanted to look into your eyes, but I was afraid I wouldn't be honest.

massugu ni aite wo aisenai hibi wo

I didn't want to know that you didn't want to love me

kurikaeshite wa hitori bocchi wo iyagatta

and live the rest of my days alone

ano hi no boku wa mukizu na mama de hito wo aisou to shiteita

That day, I kept on loving you without getting hurt.

sen no yoru wo koete ima anata ni ai ni ikou

As 1000 nights pass, I long to tell you...

tsutaenakya naranai koto ga aru

I have to let you know.

aisaretai demo aisou to shinai

"I want you to love me, but I don'tthink you will."

sono kurikaeshi no naka o samayotte

I wander around as I repeat this to myself

boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte kizu tsuitatte

It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt.

suki na hito ni wa sukitte tsutaerun da

I'll say "I love you" to the one I love

sono omoi ga kanawanakutatte suki na hito ni sukitte tsutaeru

Even if my feelings aren't returned, I can say "I love you" to the one I love...

sore wa kono sekai de ichiban suteki na koto sa

And that's the most beautiful thing in the world.

[download this song]

Loved Again

2007-09-08T00:10:00.000+05:00

It used to be life was one big dream
and the time we spent together
got me through each day

Then my days grew dark
and my dream faded away,
cause now you are gone
and once again I'm left all alone

You broke my heart like no one
else could ever do and you lied,
still I had faith and I trusted you

Even though now our love
has came to an end
I know in my heart that you'll
pass and I'll love again.

Daughtry - What About Now

2007-08-29T15:31:00.000+05:00

A song someone's been singing for me, for a long time now... Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

[download this song]

2225!

2007-08-26T14:09:00.000+05:00

Thank you all for the support you've been giving me to come this far :D

Simply Turn To Stone.

2007-08-11T10:57:00.000+05:00

A child peers deep through the sky.
A twinkle gleams across his eye.
Dire ambition lost in a stare-
Where even imagination wouldn't dare.
A world, his own to perceive,
Suddenly seems more than just make believe;
Or trees or flowers, sands and stars,
Colors and shapes, or candy bars.

Realization, the first fatal step persists,
Acknowledgment that life, itself, exists.
Luring us to explore, senses fulfill,
Till we derive at thoughts and hope and will.
Refuting a world where we could safely dwell,
Watching it slowly fade under this spell.
In the ashes of sleep, a glowing ember,
Till it's just a dream we don't remember.

Passion calls for the sacrifice,
Innocence is the going price.
Knowledge, the fruit curiosity gains.
Reality is all that remains.
Emotions arise in spiritual bemuse-
Of Antiquity and her outdated views.
For the spirit of life with youth is bold.
You just never see it until you're old.

Candor, the last hope of paradox,
Tightens the chains and clasps the locks-
Which bind us into this realm of life,
Imprisoning the soul in shackles of strife.
With anguish and pain, heartache and remorse.
Disease and death to follow in due course.
Where a daydreaming child is certainly prone-
To blink his eyes and simply turn to stone.

... Happy Birthday Shai!

2007-08-05T15:52:00.000+05:00

I know I'm but bit late, I couldn't pass up posting this. If you didn't know, the 2nd of August was (and will always be :P) Shai's Birthday. I should've posted this earlier, sorry, but damn I was busy. Sorry. But here :)

On your birthday I wish you much pleasure and joy;
I hope all of your wishes come true.
May each hour and minute be filled with delight,
And your birthday be perfect for you!

I know it's just 4 verses but, I have written so many birthday poems
for so many people nothing would get into mind
within the allocated time.

Either way, you'll always be my friend :)
Happy Birthday Shai!

Crossfade - Cold

2007-07-31T16:21:00.000+05:00

A lot of thing's been happening in my life lately, changes of mind, changes of thought, changes on views, changes in people. i realized how wrong I'd been, I treated someone so coldly without even knowing her. I'd been so cold to her without knowing her side of the story. Now I realize how wrong I'd been. And now my ill-doing has almost lead me to losing her. So I dedicate this song to her. I'm so sorry, my dear friend. Looking back at me I see

That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high

[Chorus x2:]
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold

To you I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high

[Chorus x2]

I never meant to be so cold

I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold

[Chorus x2]

[download this song]

Forever Friends

2007-07-24T15:59:00.000+05:00

My friends are so very dear to me,
Through the good and bad they’ve been there,
Laughter or tears we’ve been through it all,
But no matter what they stood by me,
Sharing in my joy, or lending a shoulder to cry on.

Building memories that will last a life time.
The fun times and laughter that we have shared
Are happy memories that will always be there.
When I was sad, they have always cheered me up.

My friends are true friends, not just passing by,
But will be there through out the years.
I can’t think of more perfect friends,
To share my goals and dreams with.

Because my Forever Friends
Are the only ones I will ever need,
I don’t know if they can tell
Just how much they mean to me.

How important their friendship is,
And how much I care,
For they are what true friendship is about.
They’re there when I need them,
And I love them all.

Friendship

2007-07-20T00:13:00.000+05:00

There are days when
bubbling from us comes
the innocent child within,
who giggles at the little things
and wears a silly grin.

There are days when
melancholy comes to
visit for a while;
the mind feels tired, the body weak;
we have no strength to smile.

There are days when
joy abundant
grabs a hold of you and me;
wraps us up in all it's splendor,
lifts us up and sets us free.

There are days when
sorrow wraps us
in its cloak of grief and fear,
'till our hearts ache to the breaking,
'till our eyes can't shed a tear.

There are days when
love bestows us
with its wonderment and light;
with its beauty and its mystery,
its power and its might.

And there are days when
life rewards us
and seems to make amends
by granting us a marvelous gift,
the precious gift of Friends.

My Way of Dwelling

2007-06-29T11:47:00.000+05:00

When we first met I made you promise
you would never leave,
then I told you of the demons,
and how they made me bleed.

I made you promise crazy things,
but your words were not enough.
I couldn't believe you loved me
I thought to love me was too tough.

When I cry about my past
and say that I'm ashamed
I know I am the only one
who is to be blamed.
Then you crawl beside me
and say that it's ok-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.

When I can't sleep through the night,
when I toss and turn in bed,
you wrap your arms around me
and chase the demons from my head.
You say don't talk about the past
you tell me that it's gone,
you say since we're together now
it's time that I move on,
you say that I'm your angel
but if you only knew
the kind of thoughts I think
and what I used to do.
You tell me it doesn't matter
and that you love me anyway-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.

They said that's how they liked it
when I dragged my nails across their backs,
but now you try hold my hand in yours
and tell me to relax,
you say that this is love
and this is the better way-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.

I never felt a thing
before you touched my heart
and when you touched it,
I thought I'd fall apart.
When you try kiss my lips,
to feel me deep within your soul
trying to wrap your arms around me
and say you'll never let me go.

When I tremble at your tenderness
and try not to melt in your arms,
I know you really love me,
and you'll keep me safe from harm
you know I've never loved
or been loved in any kind of way-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.

And now, I give you away as well.

Oh my dear, I’m so sorry. But this is the way I tend to dwell.

Take Care Mysha

2007-06-16T17:28:00.000+05:00

Saying Goodbye is the hardest thing I'll ever do

Which is why I'm beginning to wish I never said "Hi!" to you

It's hard to explain how two people can have so much in common and be so different at the same time

How in years we have surpassed a line some people straddle for decades

Its almost as if it was planned this way

That we were supposed to meet the very first day

Ever since that day, I've never looked back

I wonder sometimes why this girl means so much

But I realized it's more than that, you're a friend

Which is why I won't say goodbye

Because I don't truly believe this is the end

---

Take Care,

Beloved Mysha

What I love about you

2007-06-02T16:45:00.000+05:00

This weekend I met this really great girl … I have known her for as long as I remember but, we’re started “talking” only this weekend. Only now do I realize how cool she really is :D. Although we’re just friends, we’ve shared moments that are unforgettable. She’s a great friend. Better than any other girl has ever been to me. No. I won’t fall in love with her. Not just yet. I never want this feeling to leave my side. I never want her to leave my side. She’s constantly leaves me speechless. But yet, neither she nor I want anyone to know about our relationship. All I can say is, I really do like her. Your eyes

which first held me captivated
where I stood.

Your smile
to dazzle the sun
and warm every corner of my soul.

Your voice
like a sparkling mountain stream
which flows into my heart.

Your walk
and the way your gracefulness
takes my breath away.

Your hair
about which I dreamed
cascading into my face
as you leaned over me.

Your hands
whose caress I crave
to hold my face
in their tenderness.

Your arms
I long to have around my neck
as you pull me close
to your warmth.

Most of all
everything you are
changed the way I feel about my life.

I really do like you.

Happy Birthday Self

2007-05-30T21:01:00.000+05:00

Happy Birthday! What an occasion it surely is. An annual occasion. A lifetime of bliss. Meant to be celebrated brighter every year. That is .. until you finally realize you’re getting too old to celebrate aging :P.

Damn, everyone wants to celebrate their birthdays with a party, a small get-together at the least. What’s the purpose? We weren’t asked to celebrate the day we were born. Were we? No. Well, in my opinion. It’s all a waste of money. Well yeah, it might be amusing, pleasing and a whole lot of enjoyment at first. But hey, at the end of the day, you’ll end up with nothing but regret and missing your so-called friends. Who just came for their own cash-free enjoyment.

I on the other hand, tend to not celebrate. Pass it by like every other day. But take notice of the real friends of mine who just don’t take advantage of my dim-wittedness, but those of who that wish me “Happy Birthday” and doesn’t require anything in return. Nothing else other than “Thank You.” And for all of you that’d wished me already, I thank you, very much.

As you may perhaps already know, Tomorrow is my Birthday (31^st May). If you may ask, nothing special is happening tomorrow. Excluding the little “family get-together” mom’s apprehending. Well, although I’m not too ‘exited’ over this. Some of my awfully great friends advised me to ‘enjoy’ it. As this is the year I become a teen. Well, yeah, I hear it’s one of the most important years of the birth of man (women included). The 13th year, the year of which a boy turns into a man, a kitten turns into a cat, a cub becomes a lion. I’m sure you get the idea. Well, I see no difference in me. But as my very cool friend Arky would put it. I’m one year closer to the ages of the “Nuclear fucking Weapons” a.k.a “Awesome Hot Babes GALORE!!” O_O

Heheheh… well it’s been a long time since I took the time to write a whole essay so... Well thanks for reading :D

Oh and yeah: Happy Birthday Self!

Everything

2007-05-23T22:37:00.000+05:00

Every new beginning,
comes from some beginnings end.

Every time you kill me,
I am born again.

Every time you close that door,
Another door is opened.

And every time you say goodbye,
a different word is spoken.

Every time you look at me
my back is facing you,

And every time you ask to see me
I'll have something else to do.

Every time I join your game,
You're not playing fair,

And every time I really love you,
I pretend that I don't care.

Terror Dance

2007-05-14T18:50:00.000+05:00

Window panes come crashing down
Amidst the tears and pain
Vanishing hopes are gone and flew away
Up above through twilight
Shadows cast across the floor
Reflections of the past
Trembling thoughts of one
Dwelling deep within the soul
A mystical sense of reality
Captured by the craze
All in bewilderment
Of the shock in the wave
Creatures of the dimness
Chattering amongst the green
Everything slows in stillness
What is this we see?

Hahaha! Day by Day...

2007-05-02T19:02:00.000+05:00

Hahaha! A funny poem written by Shaif, a real cool friend of mine from class. Enjoy!

Day by Day,

He lost his way.

Day by Day,

These words he say.

Day by Day,

He sighed with passion.

Day by Day,

He changed his fashion.

Day by Day,

He stared at heaven.

Day by Day,

He woke up at seven.

Day by Day,

He thought of his mother.

Day by Day,

He killed his brothers.

Day by Day,

He always frowned.

Day by Day,

Then he drowned.

By Abdulla (Rubbish) Shaif
---
I think this was his first so, what do you think?

What Good Is Love

2007-04-29T21:10:00.000+05:00

Somewhat in the beginning ... I was thinking of Shaikha when I wrote this ... Then I thought of someone else ... Someone secret, sacred ... Some know of my crush as Sakura, some know of her as Question Mark. To my knowledge, only 3 people in the world know her by her real name.
So this is somewhat a combination of my past and now ... 67% past
I waited for your love in hope,
That ours would come again,
And make me feel the things I felt,
When we were one, back then.

But time and distance have erased,
The things I wished anew,
And now I find myself alone,
Though I am here with you.

What good is love, that does not touch,
What good is love, that gives you pain.
What good is love, that makes you run,
And makes you lost out in the rain.

I traveled to another world,
Out far beyond the one we knew,
I thought that I could live again,
And now I find I'm back with you.

But what of hearts that beat as one,
And what of passion and embrace,
Is it too much to ask of you,
To make these tears of mine erase.

What good is love, that does not touch,
What good is love, that gives you pain.
What good is love, that makes you run,
And makes you lost out in the rain.

Too painful this - to journey back,
To times of love and laughter free,
The times we lay together with
A sense of you , a sense of me.

So now, I journey on alone,
Forever wandering, in my thoughts,
And I shall ask you once again,
What good is love.

Drift

2007-04-15T19:27:00.000+05:00

I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.

I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.

You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.

I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.

For somewhere deeper, there must be

Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.

Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?

It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.

I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.

It seems the harder that I try,

To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.

Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?

Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?

Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?

Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.

Connected in Silence

2007-04-12T16:34:00.000+05:00

No communication
Total silence, a black hole, an endless abyss.
It hurts my ears, it hurts my eyes, it hurts my heart
I yearn to hear, to know, to feel.

Where are you? Where have you gone?
What are you doing, thinking, dreaming?
I used to know.

There is such a void where the words used to live
A loneliness only you can fill.

The words have gone, but the connection still lives.
You're in my thoughts, my dreams, my heart, my soul.
We may be silent but forever connected.

Examination Hell

2007-03-27T16:08:00.000+05:00

My Worst Fear,

It is now here,

My Exams are starting,

Hell's gate is opening,

There's no way out of this,

I'll just have to get it over with,

But I need to be careful,

I must circumvent the devil's grasp,

If I want heaven that lies after this Immoral sin,

I need to surpace the devil's evil,

For I will not endure hell's suffering forever,

For I want to be with heaven in high spirits,

For not in hell forever, not there miserably,

I will only remain in hell,

In the course of the examination,

I will not endure hell's suffering, not after that,

For I will circumvent the devil's grasp,

And be in heaven in high spirits,

Avril Lavigne - Girlfriend

2007-03-22T22:43:00.000+05:00

Most of the girls (excluding Mysha :P ) I know love this song, but in my point of veiw it's kindof umm... desperate. For song as a whole is nice. Not bad...

[Chorus]

[Verse 1]

You’re so fine
I want you mine
You’re so delicious
I think about ya all the time
You’re so addictive
Don’t you know what I could do to make you feel alright?
Don’t pretend I think you know I’m damn precious
And Hell Yeah
I’m the motherfucking princess
I can tell you like me too and you know I’m right

[Bridge]

She’s like so whatever
You could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that’s what everyone’s talking about!

[Chorus]

[Verse 2]

I can see the way, I see the way you look at me
And even when you look away I know you think of me
I know you talk about me all the time again and again
So come over here, tell me what I want to hear
Better yet make your girlfriend disappear
I don’t want to hear you say her name ever again
(And again and again and again!)

[Bridge]

She’s like so whatever
You could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that’s what everyone’s talking about!

[Chorus]

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don’t like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
No it’s not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend

In a second you’ll be wrapped around my finger
Cause I can, cause I can do it better
There’s no other
So when's it gonna sink in?
She’s so stupid
What the hell were you thinking?!

[repeat]

[ Chorus (repeat) ]

Mere Words

2007-03-18T13:19:00.000+05:00

I searched among the card displays,
To see if I could find,
A little something that would say
Just what was on my mind.

However there was not a one,
That captured it just right,
For no one else can understand
Just what I'd like to write.

I even find it difficult
To try to write it down,
For how do I portray to you,
The love that I have known?

I close my eyes and what I see,
Is someone I adore;
A person who is beautiful,
Right down into their soul.

Mere words cannot describe
The many qualities you show,
The love and caring nature that
You share with those who know.

Your kind and gentle temperament,
Your sweet angelic smile,
Your softly spoken sentiments,
That reach across the miles.

Your smile and laugh that sparkle with
The softness of your sighs,
The way your face lights up a room ...
That twinkle in your eye.

The loving gestures through the years,
That quickly come to mind,
For always you've a gentle word
To calm and soothe I find.

I struggle and I search to try
To find some words anew ...
And yet I cannot capture
All the things that make you you.

I shall therefore, be satisfied
That you must simply know,
Just how I feel about you,
For with words I cannot show.

Until There Was You

2007-03-08T18:30:00.000+05:00

Until there was you
I walked the earth alone
No hand to hold in mine
My heart was all my own

Until there was you
True love was just a dream
Dreams of wonder and tears
Dreams of hope and fears

Until there was you
My life had no direction
A road of uncertainty
But now we have a journey
Together you and me

So I thank my lucky stars
And God from the heavens above
For my heart and soul could never
Feel the impact of true love
Until there was you . . .

Man's Road

2007-02-18T17:01:00.000+05:00

Horizon rising up to meet the purple dawn.
Dust demon, screaming, bring an eagle to lead me on.
For in my heart I carry such a heavy load.
Here I am, on Man's Road.
Walking man's road.

I'm hungry, weary, but I cannot lay me down.
The rain comes, dreary, but there's no shelter I have found.
It will be a long time till I find my abode.
Here I am, on Man's road.
Walking man's road.

Moon rising, disguising lonely streets in gay displays
The stars fade, the nightshade falls and makes the world afraid.
It waits in silence for the sky to explode.
Here I am on Man's road.
Walking man's road...

[download this song]

Lost Souls

2007-02-14T16:19:00.000+05:00

In this heartless creation
It is hard to understand
Why some souls choose to wander
Forgetting

Yet I am lost without wandering
My love is a ghost

Ancient - with wisdom
Vital - with tears
Not able to move on
Unable to let go

It's hard to remember a love
You don't recognize in this life
Yet the memory is without thought
Agony - without knowledge
This love - is without mercy

Passing through eternity
Life to the next
Forever searching
In a labyrinth of whispers
For a blissful love
Lost

Longing for the touch
I'll sense when I feel
Whispering to my heart
Comforting this stoned soul

Our love burns within me
But I am lost in the shadows
This entity of dreams
Forever killing me

I believe this love is eternal
The flame will not relinquish
Forever circling me
The very matter of my existence

But for now I simply breath
Awaiting your rescue
Music - bonding our souls
Pain - stirring the memories
While silence shouts out this melody

btw: Happy Valentine's Day

Work Of Pain

2007-02-05T16:25:00.000+05:00

My Poetry’s not a work of art.
Its more
A work of pain
The feelings here reveal my heart.
What’s lost
And hoped to gain.
The words I write are not for you
And not for he or she.
The words I write
Are meant to cure
The damaged parts
Of me.
...

Trust Me With Your Heart

2007-01-27T00:09:00.000+05:00

Why does your heart grow doubtful dear?
Tense and beating, full of fear.
I keep with me your everlasting love,
and bless the day God sent you from above.

You remain my angel and I feel that I must,
tell you that within you, you have my trust.
My love is the tide, your soul is the shores,
you have my heart, do I have yours?

I'll belong to you till the very end,
and you will forever stay as my lover and friend.
It has been so good like this from the start,
so darling please, trust me with your heart.

Hand in Hand

2007-01-25T21:24:00.000+05:00

Laying underneath the stars,
On a warm silent night.
Your arms are wrapped around me,
And everything feels right.

You kiss me sweet and softly,
I feel your warm gentle touch,
You help me feel protected
Under the sweet night sky rush.

My world before me is perfect.
There's nowhere else I want to be,
Except laying underneath the stars
Hand in hand, you and me.

Just when everything is perfect,
And you seem so delicately sweet,
A rush of wind comes past me
As I'm swept beneath my feet.

Nothing could be more right,
There's nowhere else I want to be.
Let's take a walk my only love,
Hand in hand, you and me.

Need For Cells: Most Wanted

2007-01-23T12:55:00.000+05:00

The mobile phones I just can't live without!

XDA Exec [specifications]

Sony Ericsson W950 [specifications]

Apple iPhone [specifications]

Are you the one for me?

2007-01-15T14:39:00.000+05:00

Could you be the one for me?

Could you be my find?
Could it be, after all this time,
Fate is going to be kind?

Could you be the one for me,
The one to help me forget
The man that broke my heart, my soul
The man that haunts me yet?

You tell me that I'm beautiful
Something I've never heard
But the one still lives here in my mind
That couldn't spare a kind word

It's going to be hard to forget
And pick up the pieces he left
Could you be the one to teach
How to love again and forget?

Could you be the one to come
And mend my broken heart?
Are you willing to piece together
What another broke apart?

It won't be an easy job, you see
My road has been long and rough
And the heart that was once so soft
Is now shut, locked, and tough

But I can feel my heart open again
It's opening for you
Just come in, and love me back
That's all you have to do

I must ask you one small thing
Before we kiss and part
Please be nice and kind to me
I'm tired of broken hearts

Walking with you

2007-01-09T15:22:00.000+05:00

Walk with me, the path of life,
to explore every bend of the road
Enjoy with me the beauty of life,
along its wonderful way

Find comfort with me, in each other's arms,
when grief crosses our path
Find strength with me, in each other's strength,
when despair lies in wait

Laugh with me, a single true laugh,
to enlighten another's distress
Cry with me, a single true tear,
to understand true happiness

Cherish with me, the wonders of life,
as they need to be preserved
Rejoice with me, in the mysteries,
of what is yet to be

Find peace with me, in each other's souls,
when the world has gone insane
Find love with me, in each other's hearts,
until this life has been fulfilled

And when the path comes to an end
I hope we can say from within
We've known the beauty of true love,
our love came from within

True Love

2007-01-02T07:14:00.000+05:00

*I dedicate this poem to the unknown person referred to as "Lovin Dhanish." As her name and unknown identity has mystified my mind.. and had me thinking about her a lot lately... even after reading this, my wish to her is to please tell me her name and identify herself to me...*

I feel you in my heart
with every breath I take.

I smell your scent of happiness
in every morning we awake.

I touch your smooth and tender face
with every chance l get.

The feeling of your presence
makes me happy, we met.

I know everything, but nothing about you
and I love you in so many wonderful ways.

My heart knows when you’re near me
and it knows when you’re away.

It doesn’t matter what you look like
neither tall, short, skinny, or fat.

Your skin is soft without color
and hair as smooth as a cat.

My love for you will never change
and you will always be on my mind.

I wish you could see what I see
from the heart of one who’s in an eternal bind.

Happy New Year

2007-01-01T07:46:00.000+05:00

If it didn't bring you joy just leave it behind. Let's ring in the new year with good things in mind. Let every bad memory that brought heartache and pain. And let's turn a new leaf with the smell of new rain. Let's forget past mistakes making amends for this year. Sending you these greetings to bring you hope and cheer.
Happy New Year!

Lessons Learnt

2006-12-28T21:30:00.000+05:00

I've learned a lot of lessons
In the short time I have lived
I've learned how to appreciate
And I've learned how to give.

But in these past few months
There's two I'll remember most
I've learned how to love
And I've learned to let go.

You entered my life with such a force
And left it with one as strong
And though we tried to make it last
We both knew it wouldn't be long.

I lie at night and think about
How I'm the one to blame.
If only I would have trusted you,
I could have missed this pain.

And so I spent each day of my life
With my heart in pieces
And when I thought it could never be cured,
Something happened; I expected it least.

I guess my soul was all cried out,
And it was tired of being used.
And even though I know I'm guilty,
I was tired of being accused.

And so I've learned to end this
Without an urge to cry
These are my final words to you,
"I love you and goodbye."

Things never happen when you want to...

2006-12-16T20:52:00.000+05:00

Things never happen when you want to...

Fate might twist to the worst, without further ado,

I always seek for a chance to be with you...

To say all those words, inside me, to let you know its true,

But the courage in me is so few...

That a shudder runs through my spine, to say the words “I LOVE YOU...”

Don't Swear

2006-12-12T21:55:00.000+05:00

You once swore on the moon,
Promising your undying devotion and love.
I later realized the moon changes every night,
Apparently as do your vows.

I love you dearly as I always did.
I love you, so I'm willing to let you go.
I understand that people change,
That nothing can make you feel what you felt before.

I want you to know I'm not bitter at your words.
I understand your heart's desires, if not more.
The days turn into night, the sun into moon.
I know you loved and cared once and I know you still do.

I want you to be happy,
I want you to live the life you Love,
Love the life you live,
Find a love that makes your heart jump a beat.

Promise me one thing and one thing only -
Never confess your love by the moon,
For it changes every night.
Your heart can be broken
By foolish but once sincere vows.

Why'd you go?

2006-12-09T13:08:00.000+05:00

Standing here all on my own,
watching life go by,
taking in those dreadful words,
...a tear drops from my eye,
I stood there as i watched you run,
and waited for the pain,
love can be a painful thing,
you used my love in vain,
Why'd you leave me here to cry?,
our love had felt so...right,
why'd you go and break my heart,
just like you did that night,
let me kiss you once more,
so I can see it's true,
help me see your love is gone,
that I can't be with you,
don't leave me here to fall apart,
to watch you fade away,
tell me how you really feel,
and why you just won't stay,
I never thought I'd cry so much,
I want to see this through...
although you'll never feel for me.....
I always will love you.

He walks alone...

2006-12-06T09:51:00.000+05:00

He walks along this lonely street
no one to dry his tears
massage his tired feet
or calm ever present fears

Seeing life through tainted heart
making everything gray
Alone, his life, anew to start
Always searching for a way

But life goes on no matter what
That fact he cannot quell
Memories ne'er to be forgot
Within his heart they dwell

So he keeps walking this lonely street
Keeps searching to find his way
Every night he lies down to sleep
And prays tomorrow's a better day

Another?

2006-12-01T15:11:00.000+05:00

You would think by now, I would know my way around,
I shouldn't miss you so badly, I should be on familiar ground.

How many more lonely years, must meander by,
until I learn the lesson, it does no good to cry.

What manner of iron will, must some people possess,
to be always looking forward, to never accept regress.

Perhaps if I was willing, to let someone take me by the hand,
they could show me a happy place, in this unfamiliar land.

Perhaps I'm only homesick, for all the joys that once were mine,
I must accept that they and you, belong to another place and time.

But I know that deep within my heart, there's a place where only you reside,
and when the pain of loneliness comes, it knows that is where I hide.

So if sometimes it seems to you, I'm clinging to the past,
it's mostly because I can't yet accept, that our love didn't last.

No matter how hard I try, I've yet to get over you,
for the part of me that's still alive, believes you love me too.

Maybe there will come a day, when that part will finally die,
and feeling strong with a heart reborn, a new love I will finally try.

And what a splendid day that will be, when I awaken to discover,
I'm happily learning a great new land, with a great new friend and lover.

Reflection

2006-11-28T22:03:00.000+05:00

I stare deep into the mirror.

My eyes are locked on those of my reflection.
I have been trying to understand how you found out
How vulnerable I was.

I'm trying to see how you could look into my mind
And see that I would do anything for you.
My reflection's eyes begin to cry and tears fall into
The empty sink.

It wipes its face, blinks, and turns away.

Shattered Pieces

2006-11-24T18:56:00.000+05:00

Inside my sleeve, I pull out my heart,
handing it to you, "careful it's fragile,
and easily falls apart."

Extending your arms, you take the heart in
your tender warm hands.
It falls into a million shattered pieces - on
the floor it lands.

You begin to bend down to pick it up, sorrow and
sadness in your eyes.

Apologies are not enough.

Looking at you with tears in my eyes,
I ask you not to pick up the pieces of a heart
that has fallen apart.

I am the one who needs to pick up the pieces of
my shattered heart - one by one, piece by piece.

I need to put it together again, some how. some way.

Each piece of my heart has a memory so true.
Each piece of my heart has part of you.

You are the one who is leaving to start a new lease on life.
I'll just be here on my knees picking up the pieces of a
heart that feels like it's being pierced with a knife.

All my tears won't keep you near
All my tears won't mend what's not here.

Again I look at you with a whisper in my voice,
The only way my heart will mend and finally be complete,
is if you and I can come together without being discreet.
You see, what we have here and today, helps me face the
world, with a love for you that gives a glow -
but now, my darling, you made a choice.

My heart is on this floor, shattered and broke.
With each piece I pick up -
I need to learn to let go.

Inspirational Words...

2006-11-22T18:21:00.000+05:00

source: www.xefrox.tk

Once...

2006-11-18T18:56:00.000+05:00

(NOTE: this isn't a poem, it's an article/essay)

Once in my life I felt complete, no worries and no pain. Life was simple, life was so sweet. You brought in the sunshine and took away the rain. Once in my life I felt real joy, the joy and happiness each day which you brought to me. My world seemed so perfect. Once in my life I felt what it was to be in love and to be loved by one so gentle, tender, kind and sweet. Once in my life I felt so free, free as the cool wind that stirs the trees. Not one encumbrance upon my soul, nothing would ever keep me bound. Once in my life is not enough, for all I had treasured and tasted has now been taken, left only by this emptiness inside. Once in my life I wish that we will meet again and that you will bring me back all that I long for, your love like sweet nectar and wine. Just once more in my life before I die, please share again all the laughter as well as the tears. Come back to me, into my life.

I'm too big to cry

2006-11-15T17:31:00.000+05:00

I never stopped to realize
How lonely I would be
I never thought the day would come
When you'd grow tired of me

Your voice was never sweeter

Than the day you said goodbye
You'll never know how much it hurt
Because I'm too big to cry

If I knew then what I know now
You'd still be kissing me
Instead there's someone else's lips
Where mine used to be

I say hello and wish you well
Each time I pass you by
But you'll never know how much it hurt
Because I'm too big to cry

You never looked so wonderful
As the day you walked away
I used to say, "I love you"
But that I could not say

I can't forget you darlin'

No matter how much I try
You'll never know how much it hurt
Because I'm too big to cry

Shattered Heart

2006-11-14T10:18:00.000+05:00

I will never forget the days we once had
The days when you were everything to me
My mind used to tell me we'd be together forever
But now I realize that was all a big dream
The feelings I have for you will never go
I wish I could take back that one regretful day
The day when I willingly let you slide from my arms
Never did I think of the astonishing pain of regrets
That I would once have to live through
The sight of you in someone else's arms
Makes my heart shatter into a million pieces
I sometimes wonder if you still think of me
Or if to you, I'm just a face in the crowd
I wish so very much that one day we can have it all back
But for now, I'll sit here silently
Remembering all the memories we once shared
Everyday my love grows much stronger
Hoping that one day you will feel the same
And put back the pieces of my broken heart.

The Light and Dark Side

2006-11-13T13:48:00.000+05:00

From a bright sunny morning to a dark shadowed night,

From a hot summer to a cold winter,
From the positive to the negative,
From black to white,
From harmony to war,
From light to night,

Everyone has their own Light and Dark sides,
Covered in darkness, they search for a flicker of light,
In brightened light, they search for a darkened corner,

For I here, entrapped in a world of darkness,
I search for some flickering light,
Waiting for my time to flare...

Forgiving...

2006-11-12T18:58:00.000+05:00

The dreams you dream
are merely images
of a darkened soul
inflicting pain on me.
Drown your acceptance
and believe in me.
The power of love
is all I need.
The warmth of your touch
the motion, the feel
entirely of your heartbeat.
Do you love?
Are you free?
Can you let go of
all those secluded worries?
I love your compassion
I can hear your heart beat for another,
to love you like I do.
Why won't you realize
my love is for you
I understand you want to leave
and I will release you.
But let it be known
it was only Love for you
I have ever shown

Alone

2006-11-11T12:41:00.000+05:00

A broken heart
Shattered dreams
How could someone do this to me
I didn't know where I was

Not knowing what to do
I thought I'd found my salvation in you
You were my way out
A place without pain
A place to hide, but what did I gain
Too much time between
And your change of heart
Pushed me away and ripped us apart

Now here I am
Tattered and torn
For myself and my life I now mourn

I know I was someone
I don't remember who
I seem to have lost myself in you
I no longer know what I am
I've disappeared without a trace
All I know now is my name and my face

A person in darkness
Someone all alone
I look back and wonder what happened to my home
I look back and wonder what happened to me

From that very moment...

2006-11-10T11:05:00.000+05:00

From the moment I looked into your eyes, I knew you were the one,

The one I would spend the rest of my life with, until my time was done.

From the moment I looked into your eyes, I knew you were my soul mate,

The soul mate I waited forever for, that didn't believe in fate.

From the moment I looked into your eyes, I knew my life was about to change,

The change I knew I needed, but always felt my life was in a cage.

From the moment I looked into your eyes, I knew I would be happy forever,

The happiness I have waited so long to have, that didn’t believe in happily ever after.

You Are The One

2006-11-09T17:02:00.000+05:00

As I look at the stars at night
And dream of what is to be...
My heart begins to smile
For it's you I see

You're the one who makes me laugh
When things are looking bad
You're the one who makes me smile
When I am feeling sad
You're the only one for me
you brighten up my day
You're the sunshine of my life
you chase dark clouds away.

I think of you each day
my mind is set on you
You bring the best in me
with the sweet things you do.

Sweetheart, this love for you is true
And know forever I will Love You

2006-11-08T12:27:00.000+05:00

I’m all alone in my room,
Wondering what to do,
There are things I have to go through,
But I’m just too blue

My whole body sores,
Every second more and more,
I used to be yours,
But now, to you, I’m a bore
Tears fall from my red, swollen eyes,
As I begin to weep and cry,
Why did you lie,
Why did you say goodbye

source: Mysha Ahmed Didi

Life without you...

2006-10-28T20:27:00.000+05:00

Alone in hell, I have nowhere to turn
Memories of you, my love you spurn
Unseen forces brought us together
My heart is scarred, broken forever
In my dreams, I feel your touch
My heart is full, never so much
Time heals all wounds, this is a lie
My soul is lost, wanting to die
With broken pieces, I shall carry on
Crying forever with what's left undone

Confused Love

2006-10-25T16:02:00.000+05:00

Those simple words confuse me.

For I thought I knew what they meant.
Until I lost and won some,
My love today is for rent.

I love you.

Those simple words I know so well.
I wish for you to know.
That just liking someone is so different.
So I will say it real slow.

I L O V E Y O U

Those are the words of a million feelings.
My hopes and dreams and joys.
Little girls writing love letters.
Chasing after boys.

I…L…O…V…E…Y…O…U

Those are the words that I say to you.
I whisper them to your heart.
You turn and look back at me.
I loved you from the start.

Called Out...

2006-10-23T14:24:00.000+05:00

I called the sun and he answered me
I called the moon and she treasured me
I called the stars and they cried for me
When I called your name only silence came back to me.

I called the earth and she befriended me
I called the sky and she watched over me.
I called the seas and they refreshed me.
When I whispered your name only silence came back to me.

I called the wind and he carried me
I called the fire and he lit for me
I called the animals and they sang for me
When I spoke your name only silence came back to me.

I’ve seen you pass with my very eyes
I’ve seen you smile and my heart just sighs

And now I cry,
For the loss I've lost

The Perfect Roses, My Dear,

2006-10-12T23:28:00.000+05:00

These roses for you my love, today
Pink perfection in a long stemmed creation
Fragrant, like a thousand perfumes
Everlasting, eternally blessed
A gift of passion, Trinity
In our love... three elements, given
Faith, Hope and Love
Three precious gifts of light
Our love, undeniable, yet challenged
A world of conflict and separation
Attempting togetherness
Driven by wild attraction, determination
Faith in the possibility, happiness
Living in partnership, sharing
Hope in the future together, fulfilling
Loving, unconditionally, provocatively
Two lives in evolution, sharing
Living in harmony in adversity
Faith, Hope and Love,
These perfect roses for my love

For I may not know who you may be, yet

All alone... I am

2006-10-10T15:28:00.000+05:00

The sky swarming with overshadowing clouds
Dreary, murky parallel with his own emotions
Raindrops softly fall and mask his deserted tears
His cries lost within the deafening thunder
Screaming for a familiar voice
Nothing in view but vast darkness

As though running through an endless maze
Searching for a trace of hope
Confusion consumes his mind
Looking to the sky for some clarity
In a quest to find someone to believe in

Glancing into the distance
He spots a flicker of light
Captivated he does not turn his gaze away

A shadow effortlessly approaches him
Stricken with fear he turns away
The shadow takes form and calls his name
Curious he faces it

This glow enters his heart
While filling light in his soul
Slowly hope appears in his eyes
Desire a plain smirk on his lips

Once puzzled boy has found his remedy

And then I realize he is me…

Without a happy ending…

Still searching for that flicker of light…

Silent Tears

2006-10-05T20:22:00.000+05:00

Last night before went to bed
Thoughts of you filled my head
I have not cried this way in many of years
Onto my pillow fell six silent tears

The first was for your smile that I miss
And your tender lips I long to kiss
The second was for your gentle face
And thoughts of your loving embrace

The third came as no suprise
As I thought of your beautiful eyes
The fourth came rolling down my face
Instead of my pillow, it should be you in it's place.

The fifth came for one reason alone
I felt my love for you wasn't fully shown
I really love and miss you my dear
And there just fell...the sixth silent tear...

Slow Tears...

2006-10-04T17:58:00.000+05:00

I look up
as a tear rolls slowly
down my cheek
I think about better days
and wonder if I'll feel that way again
you look at me
with those eyes I know so well
always serious, so deep and insightful
as though you're always in control
But not today
not now
Now you look so scared
like for once you don't have the answer
I gaze at you
looking deep into those hazel eyes
Hoping to understand
why you've said those things you did
I wonder for a moment
if this is all a dream
if I shall wake in the morning
and be relieved
you look at me
with a confusion I have never seen
slowly pull me towards you
and wipe the tears from my cheek

Entrapment...

2006-09-29T23:49:00.000+05:00

Hopelessly bound
unfettered
by the chains of love's grip
- greatest gift,
fate's cruelest curse.

Wherefore do I weep
at knowing the joy,
the warmth,
at feeling the peace,
the fire.

Wherefore do I weep
unable to complete ,
to be,
unknown the kiss,
the flames.

Wherefore do I weep
at loving not living
seeing not touching
breathing not sharing
holding not loving?

All,
because I, The Fool,
am no more?

2006-09-28T14:44:00.000+05:00

All I see is night
blackness, death, and decay
My world turns dark as the blood red sunset is devoured by the hungry night sky

The light that is my life slowly dies as if wounded and left in a cold dark forest to die

The once suffered children look up at me from their graves
the hole in which they were killed by flame
merciless fire like rabid wolves on the tail of a hundred rabbits
the faces are gone
they hold no memory of those that they once identified
they lay there burning in the uncovered grave
unworthy of a funeral

All I see is night
The dark and silent night
The air, filled with the stench of rotting and burning flesh
I look down at the pits in which my people lay
They are dead
I never knew them
yet the memory of them still haunts me decades later

Now I know why the sun has gone
It is because my God has gone
and taken the last bit of beauty with him
All turns dark and I see no more
only feel the evil lurking in the shadows
hovering around me
This evil is not Lucifer prepairing to take me to my doom
I am already in a blazing firey Hell
this evil is that of my captors
the workers of the man who thinks he is God

the one who would take families and babies and elders and children
and rip them apart
burn them in his pits
and never bat an eye

loneliness hangs above me like a demon in the sky
my mind fills with the darkness of night
and my life, becomes lost
and my soul melts away with those children in the fire

even when the suffering ends
my people will leave traces of their pain
of their deaths
of their lives
of their faith

I will remember the time of my own liberation
I will remember the holes that are my eyes
and the lifeless skeleton which is my body
and the emptiness that is my heart

all I see is night
that dark, evil, blood stained night
that night that bacame my life at the time of my capture
Yes, night is all I see
my life which is an eternally silent,
cold,
rancid night
all I see is night

Hell's World

2006-09-28T14:24:00.000+05:00

Have you ever wondered how life could be

if the world would not have been in hell

torturing in every country

we are like angels trapped in a well

bloody devils dancing around the fire

watching every angel shouting in pain

the hateful words of the bad rulers

damn those bloody vein

killing, murdering

the famous subject everywhere

the death knells ring, ding dong ding

blood is what they share

the question is about our future

will it be worse than now?

wish the world would change from here

but my question is how?

source: Aminath Shaikha Sobah

Reciting... my Friend

2006-09-26T22:03:00.000+05:00

You are friendly, kind and caring
Sensitive, loyal and understanding
Humorous, fun, secure and true
Always there... yes that's you.

Special, accepting, exciting and wise
Truthful and helpful, with honest blue eyes
Confiding, forgiving, cheerful and bright
Yes that's you... not one bit of spite.

You're one of a kind, different from others
Generous, charming, but not one that smothers
Optimistic, thoughtful, happy and game
But not just another... in the long chain.

Appreciative, warm and precious like gold
Our friendship won't tarnish or ever grow old
You'll always be there, I know that is true
I'll always be here... always for you.

Seek Not My Heart...

2006-09-03T14:47:00.000+05:00

Oh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies,
Do not you hear my heartfelt cries?

Below the branches, here about,
Do not you sense my fear and doubt?
Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams,
Do not you hear my woeful screams?

Upon the meadows, touched with dew,
Do not you see my hearts a'skew?
Beneath the thousand twinkling stars,
Do not you feel my jagged scars?

Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze,
For you'll not find it 'mongst these trees.

It's scattered 'cross the moonlit skies,
Accompanied by heartfelt sighs.
It's drifting o're the gentle rain,
A symbol of my silent pain.

It's buried 'neath the meadow fair,
Conjoined with all the sorrow there.
It's lost among the stars this night,
Too far to ease my quiet fright.

No gentle winds, seek not my heart,
For simply ... it has torn apart.

Life without you...

2006-09-01T15:02:00.000+05:00

As darkness fell upon me,

Every good memory has flown away.

If this is what my life has meant to be,

I wish there was a better way.

I still remember the times together,

Especially the times I was so happy.

The bad and sad, whenever I remember,

I feel so unlucky.

Every time you make me cry,

I thought whether you cared.

All I want to do is die,

I want my life to be spared.

Do you remember the day you held my hand?

And when you said the three magical words?

It made me feel like I was in wonderland,

We both were like love birds.

How come you now hate me?

No good reason for sure.

I now know how miserable life is to be

Without you, my dear, for sure……

source: Aminath Shaikha Sobah

The love of a friend...

2006-08-31T16:14:00.000+05:00

I was someone,

But for me I was no one.

I was rejected,

Hardly accepted.

Invisible in school,

Course I wasn’t cool.

I was known as a nerd,

My voice was never heard.

I asked god, why me?

He answered back, because you are lucky…

I thought and thought,

I blinked and blinked,

Then I realized,

The whole world changing before my eyes.

Years passed,

People moved on fast,

My parents died, leaving me alone,

Hardly understanding what was going on.

I tried to hold on my fears,

Never telling anyone about the nightmares.

I was living in darkness

Yet no one with me, the friendless,

I again asked god, why me?

He answered again, because you are lucky…

My hands were wrapped around me ‘course it was a cold night

I was walking and walking then I saw a cars light

It came and stopped right in front of me

I was wondering how stupid the driver had been

Then someone lowered the windscreen

And told me to get in

I was touched by her sweet words

And I thanked her loads

It was a long way to her house

She asked me how my life was

I told her everything,

And she told me that she to go through the same things

That was the day my life just began

A wonderful phrase by a kind human

And I now know the meaning of lucky

And I am very happy

Just because of one sweet phrase

Every nightmare of mine, just erased

A friend’s love

Has changed the world

*……………………*

source: Aminath Shaikha Sobah

All alone in this big empty world

2006-08-17T20:54:00.000+05:00

Looking through the melting glass

As time chooses how fast to pass.

I wonder why were even here

I'm overwhelmed with sudden fear.

I try to speak but only mumble

The walls around me start to crumble

I look down and close my eyes

I cant tell the truth from the lies

Is this real or just a dream

The voice inside me starts to scream

The screaming peaks then fades away

Tomorrows just another day.

Work Of Pain

2006-08-13T16:06:00.000+05:00

Her...

2006-07-31T10:14:00.000+05:00

I live through my dark existence
only to bask in her beauty
her eyes that shine like sapphires
her smile that brightens even my sad existence
I envy the wind that runs through her hair that touches her lips
I long to touch her to hold her in my arms,
but I cannot for her heart belongs to another
so, I can only love you from afar
her friendship means more to me
than anything this world provides
but like an angel she touched my heart
in a way that I've never felt before
cause I've never known what love is until this day
I know that we were only friends
but my heart wishes it to be more so
I've hoped and dreamt
waiting for the day to say, I love you so
But now my heart's desire
My heart, my love for you
Is as good as an extinguished fire
And now "I" am the failure...

Examination Hell...!

2006-06-30T09:07:00.000+05:00

My Worst Fear,

It is now here,

My Exams are starting,

Hell's gate is opening,

There's no way out of this,

I'll just have to get it over with,

But I need to be careful,

I must circumvent the devil's grasp,

If I want heaven that lies after this Immoral sin,

I need to surpace the devil's evil,

For I will not endure hell's suffering forever,

For I want to be with heaven in high spirits,

For not in hell forever, not there miserably,

I will only remain in hell,

In the course of the examination,

I will not endure hell's suffering, not after that,

For I will circumvent the devil's grasp,

And be in heaven in high spirits,

Undo my loneliness…

2006-06-24T14:52:00.000+05:00

I have no one now...
No one to care for,
No one to love...
I need someone,

To share my life with,
To share my secrets with,
To be with,
To talk to,

To be loved,
To be cared for,
To be recognized,
To have someone by my side,

I need someone,
Or I may suffer,
To bear,
Even Die,
Of loneliness,
Lifeless,
Friend less...

Help me,
Save me,
I cant keep them,
My thoughts in me,
No longer,

...I need someone... side by side…

I’ve lost her…

2006-06-24T14:05:00.000+05:00

The person I loved,
For so long,
The person I cared,
Is now gone,
I've been thinking,
For what fate decides,
We've been talking,
And now we're just friends,
All I want is what makes her happy,
This may be my stupidest decision,
but still I may have also finally ccome my senses,
All I want is is her to be happy
Even though, my decision maybe crappy,
Even though, I let her go,
I still love her so,
Thank god,
We're still friends even though...